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| so school FINALLY ended and i've got the rest of the summer to kill..
this year went by rapid, no actually it went by s-l-o-w. it's weird how things change over the course of the year. school's alright, i did decent, nothing exciting-- but i did grow to hate the town i live in. ok i guess that's dumb to say haha. but you realize there's only a few you can trust--if any, how vicious your fellow peers can be, how quickly they can turn against you, and selfish worthless bags of cunts they can be, yea you can imagine :P
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did i mention i do cheerleading? fuck i really hate it.
"Why do you do it?"
because it looks good on my highschool resume even though i'll look like a bimbo?
honestly i really do hate it, i think im decent at this "sport", ok i don't really consider it as a sport and shut the fuck up you dumb bitches that spend a whole fuckin hour fuckin arguing how cheerleading is a sport.. I DONT CARE.
-our team is a lazy piece of shit that does nothing but sit around and talk. we should fuckin improve because we suck. and we didn't win "state champions" because we deserved it, we only got it by entering more than half our team doing the same cheers and dances [there was absolutely no variety, it got boring seeing the same routines]
-what i really hate is going to practice..G-d i dread it. all the girls are packed in cliques gossiping and talking shit about everyone, that's like 75% of what they talk about, sometimes i think im the only sane one or that im just an outcast. [girls don't like new people coming into their conversations most of the time unless you're invited ..*meow]
... anyways i still have 2 more years of this. i know if im unhappy with something i should quit it, but i should be dedicated to something for once.
eh im trying to cover all aspects into one entry but screw it okk [i have a grad. party to go to after this]
you know what i absolutely despise?
when people do something you do.
i fuckin hate that.
sometimes you juset want something to be your own thing, something special, and what they do is take it away and blabbermouth about it, how great they are, when you're the one who deserves some credit. but you just learn to deal with those fuckin bastards, and tolerate them.
anyways
there are things to look forward to this summer, for me.
-my sweet sixteen
-this thang...
-and cheerleading camp [ok that's not somethin to look forward to, yes i do regret ever to having sign up for it, i actually thought this season was going to be different]
yea im really mad that i have to invite people i hate to my party, i know im an asshole like that but whatever.
ehrm... some people change in a bad way, but hopefully this summer i will be different.
not entirely different, but i just want to improve myself...that is build confidence, me [physically] well idk maybe that will happen hahahaha, um yea and some other stuff.
i'll probably edit with some pictures, check back soon.
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Spring Break
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hey guys sorry it took me a while, i doubt anyone checks this thing...
so i just got back from Spring Break a week ago from our Cruise 2006 on the Carnival Valor. i had a hecka fun time, i miss it so much. i remember whinin and bitchin not to go, but i regret i ever did that since it was awesomee.
Here's the itinerary:
Saturday .
Left NJ and flew to Miami. Met up with my dad's friends and went to Cooperstown to the Everglades and took a boat tour. Ate at some Peruvian Place (mad good food) and went to a hospital to meet my mom's friend. Then went to the house we slept overnight and met up with the crew. Drove around Miami.
Sunday
Went to Church for Palm Sun. (im sorry but i kept falling asleep i was so bored.) Uh packed the bags and went to boarding the Boat.
Monday
Arrived in Nassau, Bahamas and one of the girls get sick. They had to stay at the hospital there. It was raining and our tour got canceled and i got all wet, haha.
Tuesday
Sea Day.
Wednesday
Arrived in St. Thomas, had a mini tour. Went shopping and to the beach. (Hecka fun, i'd post up some pics but xanga was gay) Friend's family ended up going back to Cali.
Thursday
Went to St. Maarten's and toured.
Friday
Sea Day.
Saturday
Last Day and Sea Day. Fuck. My heart is cringing just thinkin about it. The only time im ever going to appreciate a 24/hr Buffet, free ice cream whenever you want, uh ok free food!, having formal dinners at the Lincoln, getting Strawberry Daiquiri's whenever you want, getting stalked by stupid men, tanning on the nude deck :P haha, the NIGHT LIFE, and spending time with friends. *Sigh, im sorry but you don't understand- and meeting a cute guy and not getting his info.. NOO. loll.
Sunday
Arrived in Miami. Had my last breakfast. Sad day. Went to crappy airport and killed like four hours. Spent last moments with friends. Said goodbye.
Arrived at fuckin New Jersey :(
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So seriously i had an awesome vaca, but it gave me a lot of time to think. Yea i had one of those who are you and who are your friends moments. I've learned a lot, especially from Leanne my Nigga (the gal you see in the pics above) Ok wow i feel like im asking for your sympathy but NO im not that sad, anyways i can't trust anyone in Cresskill and it takes a lot to trust someone. Only a few..i think one. The others are from towns away or across the states. I guess it's a time to reinvent myself haha.
The thing is people are changing and you can't do nothing about it. Some in a bad way, some in a good. And the more time passes by you don't even know who the person is or who YOU are. Ok i guess this is all part of highschool, having doubts and learning about life. But it takes time to figure out where you are in life and sometimes you just have to move on or try to fix things and build yourself up.
(i'll try postin more pics up but xanga is gay so..)
Im going to try to...
Write more often in xanga. I miss it a lot hehe.
Love to you all and god bless.
xxxx Charrel
Oh and i can't wait til Summer!
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| Hey guys, it's like 5:54 a.m. to be exact.. uhh.. yeaa so Merry Christmas! er, um Happy Holidays to everyone! im so beat right now i'll edit later. | | |
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..Yes ..OMG CHARREL! NEW FUCKIN ENTRY! like o.m.g. yheah.
So lolhey xanga how've ya been without me? well i decided to write here a new entry because i decided to be unlazy :P [still awake, from the sugar of a Large wendy's coke] ehh long day today. it was a four day weekend and i hadn't done anything productive with my time. i was a big, fat, ole slob moping around the house for the past few days. so far school's been hectic, well it's really my fault because im such a procrastinator and cheerleading's been eating up my time. arghh.
Well this morning i had to wake up pretty darn early, 11:30 a.m. ehh actually it was around 10:00 i woke up, but then i watched TRL on mtv hits because Daniel Radcliffe was on.. he's such a cutie pie, loll NOW i have a crush on him  yea..well took a shower and yaddi yadda went to the game. it was a consolation game that they just threw in at Waldwick.. it was a really nice field too.. the fake grass loll. weird band, loud cheerleaders, eh eh football players, and a cool water jug! yea so there were umm [thinking atm] 12? cheerleaders there, including me..i think i included me when i was counting.. anyways yea we won?? 27-7 loll. it was grrreat, but we had to do the fight song a million times.. i hate that.. our stupid band is lazy and yea, i have to admit, they suck this year..well they pretty much suck every year. hey band* [haha] try to make a performance that will not bore the audience.. i beg of you!! 
So bus ride home, changed, picked up Amber [i love her  ], went to Quizznos to pick up some dinner, then drove to the city. Ahh, let me tell you.. so mucchh traffic. We got out of my dad's car to walk to Roseland Ballroom, which was just a few blocks away- since staying in the car would take too long. We went on the wrong side of the building, then we walked to the wholeee other side. ahh, so many kids! long line! but we met up with some friends who were close to the beginning of the line. it was really cold, and so many stupid girls screaming!! arghh.
We finally went in.. they searched my bag for gum.. haha i think that's funny. they probably collected x978123478 lbs of gum. [maybe because wild, stupid, crazy girls would spit it in your hair haha] eh amber had to go to the bathroom, and then we went to the merch stand, i only bought 2 concert tees cause the ones i wanted were sold out [prob. gonna buy 'em online] and missed the first couple of songs of the Academy Is..!! err they played my fav. song too without me watchin 
Stupid crazy girls, stupid crazy girls, stupid crazy girls, get over yourselves. pushing and shoving and moshing. hahhahahahah. Academy performed first [kinda short performance], rooney [short, but cool, they played SHAKIN' and i finally got to jump to a song!! ee i was so happy, hot guy in front of me with ugly girls..  ] ..and.....
AAR was insane..ahh me and amber woulda DIED if we hadn't moved to the side. i got some good pics..well idk how you'll judge them but i tried bitches aiight? yes they were amazing. academy and them threw water bottles.. haha but aar threw picks.. [ahh i wanted one so bad] and tyson body surfed in the crowd!! loll he's a funny guy i love him loll [[stfu charrel]] bahh, they were freakin amazing. they sounded ahh!! i was so excited that they came out.. my number one most favoritest band.. first poppish punkish band i ever listened to haha. we go way back yo. [me and the band  ]
Anyways..ehh thank you for whoever was reading this, right now it's 1:28 AM. idk..i wouldn't have time to write in xanga for a while because of school, laziness, sports, ABD prrooccrraassttiinnaattiioonn.
--To conclude.. this was one of the most amazing experiences of me life! it's great when your standing there in the crowd, just another face, er, dot, that the artist sees. you're standing there with your neck hurting [if ur short like mee] your legs aching [from standing on tippy toes like mee] trying to tolerate the fuckin crazy bitches pushing and shoving you [like what happened to mee] singing your heart out, and feeling the beat of the drums in your heart. i came for the music.
this year i think i hate people. hahaha. no just kidding. but what i wanna say is that im sick of people acting fake and not being themselves. people who act a certain way just to get attention or talk to someone. people who listen to a certain genre/band/artist because someone else does [if someone likes somethin and you don't, doesn't mean you have to listen to it!]. people who want to fit in or be like everyone else by dressing like everyone else, er, following the trend. people who aren't themselves and act like someone they're not. rude people, people who think they're cool. ahh.. by what i said means my observation of the world around me, school, random people idk. haha. but we're all hypocrites..we're all [maybe all, maybe not] something i mentioned up there^^
loll don't mind what i said up there^^ [[ew ur a fuckinbitch charrel]] nah, opinions opinions of charrel. so guys enjoy life, have fun, we're livin the life! [highschool loll] <<loll that whole thing was totally random>> and take care. 
11.12.05 [the Academy Is..., Rooney, and The All-American Rejects @ the Roseland Ballroom]
xx
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